psychology classes = win!

this morning...
i sipped on iced vanilla chai from mandeville coffee cart + watched cute baby videos.

and then i walked to my next class and thought about hamster for another hour or so.

= classes are fun :)

5 more..

12 medschool applications - done (within the last 3 weeks! woot i'm quite shocked)

5 more school applications - to be completed by 09/10 (if i'm not defeated by this sickness + wisdom teeth)

2 more applications - waiting to be processed (drexel ucsf, er, helloooo!)

=( this process is quite hard. here's the way to do it..

some good passages! plus my trusty macbook and its oh-so-confusing microsoft word program

some recycle paper for brainstorming. always answering the "why" =/

and of course, some "please help me edit this secondary" emails. thank you guys =)

[no, this post is here because i'm writing about photography, and wanted to take more b&w pictures]

midterm studying

-wangleehom (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbG2OsUx5ts). check

-gummybears from Henry's. check

-p90. check. exercising is ridiculously addicting (true esp when his voice is muted)

-AS lecture notes (since i fell asleep last week.. my body was not functioning properly). check

-copied pages from dwong. check

-podcast on 2x the speed. check

-perk's iced coffee (i only need 5 sips max. super strong black coffee). check

summer classes ftw =)

eeek

headache + extreme tiredness (i slept through my three hour psyc class ><) for the past few days = must not be good..

eww

good: peterzell is teaching

bad: summer session I

good: probably okay to skip out the first two classes

bad: would have to read the textbook..

good: i'd be in sd all summer

bad: ... i'd be in sd ALL summer

(tentative [nasty] schedule)

SSI:

-psyc102

SSII:

-either psyc173 or psyc191

-UD hum

FA10:

-bimm116

-ltwl124 (p/np)

-psyc101

-psyc178

-LD hum from mesa college

-mus130 (???)

WI11:

-phil27

-molbasis disease

-psyc106

-ud hum (mus130??)

SP11:

-lab (hopefully not..)

-core psyc (103, 104)

-psyc134

-ld hum

-TA for pprice! metabolics (=D)

..and hopefully graduate by then. Whew.

onrepeat

Weird study habit: most of the time, I can only listen to one song on repeat when studying (focus) - the switching song part is way too distracting for me.

This quarter finals:

{Go Hard - Lecrae}

You know where it stopped when I turned it off to take the final (which, haha I completely failed cause I didn't read the textbook =[ )?

"If you didn't know Christ would your life look the same / Can they tell you value Jesus by the way you rep His name? / man what's the point of living if I'm living by myself"

Isn't that cool.

timeline

strangely comforting and scary at the same time.

how is that possible? eeeek. k get to work get to work nomnomnomm

no panicking

i think i've been taking this whole application process too lightly, to the point that i haven't been putting all that i can.

i remember i started my college application 4+ months prior to the deadline; had my TWO english teachers + various advisors edit my essays MULTIPLE times.

and yet here i am, barely started on my med school essay.

panicked a little bit this week? yeah. definitely

but, i know this all just means (1) gotta be a good student and do my work; (2) trust that all things will work out for good.

research is no fun

i haven't felt this unmotivated in a long, long time.

my research paper is giving me headaches. and i rock at procrastinating on it. hahahah. still only on the intro...

and i've concluded that i will NOT study at home unless someone else is here. i suck at being productive at home, especially by myself.

i need to study

"i need may 8th to come quickly.. achkjkkjk"
"yeah well by the time may 8th comes around, you'll have something that day, too"
"..ack, probably"


yay for roomie.
nay for no time to study. haha other than past midnight every night.

--
my whole, entire,entire body hurts. o_o

bacteriaissupercool

for 5 weeks, i had no idea what was going on in bimm100 and bimm101.

but i do now!

oh my gee - it is SO cool!!! bacteria is super smart. hahahahah. i like v. fischeri now =)

http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/bonnie_bassler_on_how_bacteria_communicate.html

i'm so giggly! hehe.

okay, now back to my 10 page paper and studying for midterms. =X

scattered thoughts

Pastor Patrick shared a bit towards the end of thanksgiving potluck (will blog about it, hopefully). Although he was talking about a completely different topic - how thankful he was for the bookfund - there are few things that he said that was basically exactly what's been on my mind (but probably better put). haha

"If God didn't want [me] to go this way, then why SO much affirmation"?
"answered prayers; affirmations that this is the direction God wants [me] to go".
"God, you wouldn't bring me this far just to have me fall flat on my face".

I have had so many doors opened for me; if this is not the way You are pushing me to go, WHY/ i have so many.

Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Who in their right mind would want to do medicine. Which girl in her right mind would willingly give up 8+ years of their life ("golden years", as mommy calls it)?? Who wouldn't want to get married some day? Have family? Who wouldn't want to just have an easy life, work from 8-5? Am I nuts?!



But, I suppose this is what I'm choosing to do. I just hope that by pursuing this neverending/scary/long/lonely road, God will be glorified the most.

Nonetheless, I'm still scared.