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I'm so confused, so scared.
November now. I really don't have much time to think anymore.
So many questions flooding in my mind. Can I really make the sacrifice? How will my future look like? Would it be worth the sacrifice? Is it a wise decision? How can I be sure that I won't look back and regret my decision?

It's a lot to chew on.
I thought and prayed about this for so long, but I'm still so conflicted.