what happens when i'm sleep deprived

britt suggested that i should blog about my day, cause it's full of what the ridiculous stories. hahah

1.
-picked up a scantron for my test
-came out to be 27 cents
-handed the cashier a quarter and four pennies, turned around to leave
-he gave me the strangest look, took the quarter and two pennies, and handed me back the other two...
=( i can't count. good thing my midterms werent on math!

2.
-after my third midterm, was walking on library walk
-a guy came up to me advertising something
-he asked, "hi how are you doing? do you have five minutes to save a life today (in ref to bone marrow donation)?"
-i took off my ipod, turned around, and sluggishly said "oh.. hmm.. maybe next time.."
-he gave me a weird look
=( my brain definitely shuts down. haha, maybe next time i'll try to save a life? lol, what a silly answer =)

3.
-came home, napped till 5:30
-kept on thinking, oh shoot, i wonder if liz is coming home today
-called her on her cell phone, turned out she DID come home while i was asleep, and we even had a conversation. it went like this (according to liz, cause i dont remember any bits of it at all):
liz: *open door, oh sorry, didn't know you were sleeping
me: hi liz
liz: hey, sorry to wake you
me: oh it's okay, i'm sleeping anyway...
=/ yup, don't remember this AT all.

a non-depressing post! =)

planned

I know what I wanted, what I planned for, what I expected.

Perhaps its quite stupid on my part, but sometimes, I feel as if I cannot allow myself room for another option, so I can't, won't fail.

Okay, not smart.

{Prov 16:9 - The mind of man plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps}

A lighter note, I got a second interview! This is pretty amazing considering I pretty much saw no signs of hope after my first one.

still shaking

{Deuteronomy 31:6 - Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid of tremble at them, for the Lord your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you.}

feels like sophmore year

unbalanced

the whatif's

When thinking about / worrying about the future (which I found myself doing a lot more this past year as I'm almost done with college..), I'm always so in need to be reminded of trusting in God's provision. {James 4:11-15} was the verse that I read (and re-read and re-read some more), but girltalk (by the Mahaney ladies) mentioned some good points to consider in their post today (though the intended audience is mothers, I think we can all benefit from it =))

{Matthew 6:33-34 - But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own}

{James 4:11-15 – Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.” Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow, You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.” But as it is, you boast in your arrogance; all such boasting is evil. Therefore, to one who knows the right thing to do and does not do it, to him it is sin.}

The Mahaneys write:

There is no grace for our imagination. That’s why our fearful imaginings produce bad fruit: anxiety, lack of joy, futile attempts to control.

There is no grace for our imagination. But God does promise sufficient, abundant grace for every real moment of our lives. That’s why the Proverbs 31 woman can “laugh at the future in contrast with being worried or fearful about it” (ESV Study Bible note on Pr. 31:25)

There are few things that I've always highlighted within the prov31 passage {v 12, 15, 25, 30}. But I guess I never truly noticed/meditated on it enough.

{Prov 31:25 - Strength and dignity are her clothings, And she smiles at the future.}

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