I am so thankful for God.
For making me sick, realizing that I can't do anything by myself, that whatever I was doing before was WRONG.
For providing me words of encouragements, words of rebuke, when I so desperately needed them that I didn't even see it myself.
Today, that was all I could think of - thank you, God.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
awakened
1. have you been eating well?
2. have you been sleeping well?
3. have you been in the Word?
no no and no.
no wonder I'm doing so, horribly.
2. have you been sleeping well?
3. have you been in the Word?
no no and no.
no wonder I'm doing so, horribly.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
to appreciate [homeless ministry]
Today was such a blessing.
I've actually been thinking/praying about this ministry since the beginning of the summer. But somehow I never got around emailing Joyce. There were a couple times where I composed her an email, asking about homeless ministry, but it just seemed to be too many obstacles - I didn't/don't have a car, so getting around would definitely be a problem; I was studying for MCAT at the time, so time-management would be a problem as well; collegelife 3rd hour started around the same time, so it basically means I'd be at church from 9-6 (not that I don't want to be at church, just that I can't manage my time well..) God is gracious, though, and allowed me the opportunity to go today! I'm so thankful.
I got a mini-version of Joyce's testimony <3 It's always so good to hear how amazing our God is. So thankful for her.
The ladies (and gents) at PB prebysterian were really nice. They seemed to have enough volunteers for today, but they kept on telling me to come back (which I definitely will). I learnt to cook food (1st time making instant mashed potatoes), serve food to those who are so so SO different from me. What an experience. So thankful.
It makes me think how blessed I am. How fortunate, how spoiled I've been. My parents really have given me everything I ever asked for (I don't ask much or often, but whenever I did, I think I always got it). I never had to worry about not being able to eat. I'm so thankful.
Since it is in PB, the church (Joyce said it was built in the 1800s!) and the surrounding was not exactly "nice". But I can see they really tried to serve their best food and do their best -- it was a full-on meal complete with dessert and milk! And all the ladies truly put their heart into washing, cutting, preparing the food. So thankful to have a chance to get to know those that truly have a heart for people.
The structure was, the door opened, everyone lined up for the food, once everyone got their food, we close down the window and this one lady (ack, bad memory-cant remember her name) prayed for the food. What made me SO SO SO sad was that I saw so many people who just devoured the food during prayer time so they can be the 1st in line for the second serving. I realized later, that I did see few that were genuine, closed their eyes and truly prayed (I hope). It brought peace to my heart, and reminded me that only God has the power to save, and to truly trust in Him.
I have so many thoughts running through my mind. They are so scattered, which makes this post very unorganized. I am, though, super thankful for this opportunity God provided me.
I've actually been thinking/praying about this ministry since the beginning of the summer. But somehow I never got around emailing Joyce. There were a couple times where I composed her an email, asking about homeless ministry, but it just seemed to be too many obstacles - I didn't/don't have a car, so getting around would definitely be a problem; I was studying for MCAT at the time, so time-management would be a problem as well; collegelife 3rd hour started around the same time, so it basically means I'd be at church from 9-6 (not that I don't want to be at church, just that I can't manage my time well..) God is gracious, though, and allowed me the opportunity to go today! I'm so thankful.
I got a mini-version of Joyce's testimony <3 It's always so good to hear how amazing our God is. So thankful for her.
The ladies (and gents) at PB prebysterian were really nice. They seemed to have enough volunteers for today, but they kept on telling me to come back (which I definitely will). I learnt to cook food (1st time making instant mashed potatoes), serve food to those who are so so SO different from me. What an experience. So thankful.
It makes me think how blessed I am. How fortunate, how spoiled I've been. My parents really have given me everything I ever asked for (I don't ask much or often, but whenever I did, I think I always got it). I never had to worry about not being able to eat. I'm so thankful.
Since it is in PB, the church (Joyce said it was built in the 1800s!) and the surrounding was not exactly "nice". But I can see they really tried to serve their best food and do their best -- it was a full-on meal complete with dessert and milk! And all the ladies truly put their heart into washing, cutting, preparing the food. So thankful to have a chance to get to know those that truly have a heart for people.
The structure was, the door opened, everyone lined up for the food, once everyone got their food, we close down the window and this one lady (ack, bad memory-cant remember her name) prayed for the food. What made me SO SO SO sad was that I saw so many people who just devoured the food during prayer time so they can be the 1st in line for the second serving. I realized later, that I did see few that were genuine, closed their eyes and truly prayed (I hope). It brought peace to my heart, and reminded me that only God has the power to save, and to truly trust in Him.
I have so many thoughts running through my mind. They are so scattered, which makes this post very unorganized. I am, though, super thankful for this opportunity God provided me.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
fear
It never used to be like this.
My biggest fear, is that somewhere down the line, I would put school/work/career above things that would bring glory to God.
I feel that because I have been brought up this way, to cherish and chase after the things of the world, this worldly "success", I can so easily lose sight.
Just this past week, I've been so overwhelmed with school work, work, TAing, that I actually have not been able to meditate on God's word.
how can I SO easily fall down?
Can someone remind me when I'm heading towards the wrong road, pick me up when I fall, tell me of the Grace when I can't see clearly.
My biggest fear, is that somewhere down the line, I would put school/work/career above things that would bring glory to God.
I feel that because I have been brought up this way, to cherish and chase after the things of the world, this worldly "success", I can so easily lose sight.
Just this past week, I've been so overwhelmed with school work, work, TAing, that I actually have not been able to meditate on God's word.
how can I SO easily fall down?
Can someone remind me when I'm heading towards the wrong road, pick me up when I fall, tell me of the Grace when I can't see clearly.
Monday, October 5, 2009
fellowship is SO sweet
Happy 20th! Austin =)
I never really thought I'd say this, but, I seriously LOVE my class. We are so, so, so different in our own ways (even me/caroline/shelby are super different - according to several people, and the boys, hahahah, SO different).
It was such a precious time yesterday, we had a small celebration/surprise for mr. austin, and just hang out there (internet cafe II!) for a little bit. <3 I seriously love them.
Caro came by and slept over - even when it was 2am in the morning and I had to get up early today for my 8am class, I cannot express in words how much they touch my heart. We laughed, and joked about all the possible, maybe things. We talked about the future, wondered what our amazing God has instore for us. In the end, I know that, at least for me, because we have one another, no matter what our lives throws at us, we can cling on our wonderful God and breathe in the air of encouragement that can only be found in fellow believers.
Ben was right, fellowship IS so sweet. All I want to do is hug them <3
I never really thought I'd say this, but, I seriously LOVE my class. We are so, so, so different in our own ways (even me/caroline/shelby are super different - according to several people, and the boys, hahahah, SO different).
It was such a precious time yesterday, we had a small celebration/surprise for mr. austin, and just hang out there (internet cafe II!) for a little bit. <3 I seriously love them.
Caro came by and slept over - even when it was 2am in the morning and I had to get up early today for my 8am class, I cannot express in words how much they touch my heart. We laughed, and joked about all the possible, maybe things. We talked about the future, wondered what our amazing God has instore for us. In the end, I know that, at least for me, because we have one another, no matter what our lives throws at us, we can cling on our wonderful God and breathe in the air of encouragement that can only be found in fellow believers.
Ben was right, fellowship IS so sweet. All I want to do is hug them <3
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