Pastor Patrick shared a bit towards the end of thanksgiving potluck (will blog about it, hopefully). Although he was talking about a completely different topic - how thankful he was for the bookfund - there are few things that he said that was basically exactly what's been on my mind (but probably better put). haha
"If God didn't want [me] to go this way, then why SO much affirmation"?
"answered prayers; affirmations that this is the direction God wants [me] to go".
"God, you wouldn't bring me this far just to have me fall flat on my face".
I have had so many doors opened for me; if this is not the way You are pushing me to go, WHY/ i have so many.
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Who in their right mind would want to do medicine. Which girl in her right mind would willingly give up 8+ years of their life ("golden years", as mommy calls it)?? Who wouldn't want to get married some day? Have family? Who wouldn't want to just have an easy life, work from 8-5? Am I nuts?!
But, I suppose this is what I'm choosing to do. I just hope that by pursuing this neverending/scary/long/lonely road, God will be glorified the most.
Nonetheless, I'm still scared.
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