gmail..

So, inbox, full of emails labeled with bright red tab "med school."

Amongst them, there's one from mint.com saying, "Exceeded Budget for Fast Food"

Blah!

unhealthy

frustrated. want to cry laugh sleep it off never wake up die soon go home see thomas watch a movie eat a lot not eat at all cut tear scream feel pain

strangely, tripped and fell (a true talent to trip over flat surfaces). gigantic internal bleeding on my knee, feels like. hahaha. when is it going to turn purple?

salt & pepper II

equality & headship

From {chapter 3 - by raymond c. ortlund, jr}

{genesis 1-3}

"equal in a sense that they bear God's image equally"

-(re)defined; {genesis 1:26}

-equality is not: social status, financial stability, authority.

-because it's God's image, there's respect, equal worth [trust].

{genesis 2:23}

-the thought here is, from one flesh, to one flesh (marriage). how crazily cool.

"to love as equals, not to love in the same way"

-love exists in both headship&submission. just because you carry out one but not the other does not mean you eliminate love in the process.

"natural outcome is fulfillment, not a denial of rights"

-what is there to argue against?

"This life is not our fulfillment." "Our pain and limitations points us to God"

-so why do i dwell so much on it?

"authority - to be borne for the benefit of others without regard for oneself"

-wahlala. that's insane hard.

short b/c you should go read the entire chapter yourself! =)

clarity

can i..

watch clouds?

eww

good: peterzell is teaching

bad: summer session I

good: probably okay to skip out the first two classes

bad: would have to read the textbook..

good: i'd be in sd all summer

bad: ... i'd be in sd ALL summer

(tentative [nasty] schedule)

SSI:

-psyc102

SSII:

-either psyc173 or psyc191

-UD hum

FA10:

-bimm116

-ltwl124 (p/np)

-psyc101

-psyc178

-LD hum from mesa college

-mus130 (???)

WI11:

-phil27

-molbasis disease

-psyc106

-ud hum (mus130??)

SP11:

-lab (hopefully not..)

-core psyc (103, 104)

-psyc134

-ld hum

-TA for pprice! metabolics (=D)

..and hopefully graduate by then. Whew.

i know!

onrepeat: Casting Crowns - I Kknow You're There

i know you're there, i know you hear me / i can find you anywhere

just because it's not in focus, doesn't mean it's not there.

---

still don't have a complete draft that i'm 100% happy about, but i know what i want to write, the rough structure, what i want to convey, which, =)!

---

other hand,

stupid dreams. it feels like i'm picking which relationship(s) i want to keep. but i'm not. i'm not.

right.?

going home 07/03 - 07/25; just in time for the mother's bday =)

The Mayonnaise Jar

(from email)

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,

When 24 hours in a day is not enough;
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.

When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And start to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
It into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand
And poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
Children, health, friends, and favorite passions
Things that if everything else was lost
And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.
So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the dripping tap.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'
One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.

'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"



I just did......

this is pretty blasphemous, hah

in regards to eating unhealthy food (such as yummilicious chocolatechip blondies)

"er, so, you know, when in doubt, what would Naomi say?"

onrepeat

Weird study habit: most of the time, I can only listen to one song on repeat when studying (focus) - the switching song part is way too distracting for me.

This quarter finals:

{Go Hard - Lecrae}

You know where it stopped when I turned it off to take the final (which, haha I completely failed cause I didn't read the textbook =[ )?

"If you didn't know Christ would your life look the same / Can they tell you value Jesus by the way you rep His name? / man what's the point of living if I'm living by myself"

Isn't that cool.

one things at home

i miss the days when i can wake up and run my fingers across the 88 keys,

or play a song or two and then go back to studying

i'm tempted to just abandon all the things on my iCal and drive home for a weekend.

4 + 1

study study study.

6 more days and i'll be done =)

[study-wise, hahah no need to study bicd134 =D]

yellow

to add to my wishlist:

-come back here with my guitar

-come back here to do my QT =)