fear that because things have been going so well, something terrible is going to happen.

just so i dont forget

thankful for:
-phil4:8, think i woke up with this swirling around in my mind today. whatever is TRUE, PURE, LOVELY, dwell on these things
-reminder that i needn't fear; think this whole week, i've been picturing myself getting disowned by my parents and kicked out of the family, HAH.. why? i dont know. this is the mental image when i think about the future. skewed? i hope so. pessimistic view? perhaps. lots of tears? think so. still amazed at the grace + strength +love of God? always.
-aptmates;
-books; + people who let me borrow them.
-getting up early; so i can go on the rest of the day =)
-vanilla chai, so i'm actually awake in class! hahaha
-podcast at 2x speed. this is kind of incredible.

i need to study

"i need may 8th to come quickly.. achkjkkjk"
"yeah well by the time may 8th comes around, you'll have something that day, too"
"..ack, probably"


yay for roomie.
nay for no time to study. haha other than past midnight every night.

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my whole, entire,entire body hurts. o_o

spring qt, week two

really can use another day or two like this.

feels so drained

just one this week =)

always thankful for:
-the gospel

makes no sense

it's only week 1.
my classes are supposedly super easy
but,
i havent been able to sleep before 1:30a
to-do list is exponentially increasing
feels like i'm doing nothing right
what is going on.